Faree

It's too early on this Saturday for a nigga to be woke, but here I am wide awake. I laid on my side looking into my wife's beautiful face. Not getting to touch her was driving him crazy. He sighed as the sun began peaking up into the sky. He looked down at her stomach and shook his head. Sigh, we use to have sex daily and none of my seeds have been successful. He groaned then turned on his other side. He just laid there listening to her soft snores and the TV from Maddy's room. He started to get up when he felt a small hand on his back. He look back to see Nicki staring at him. Her eyes were wide and sleepy looking.

"Where you going?"

"For a walk."

"At 6am?"

"I need to clear my head."

She sat up and folded her arms across her chest then glared at him. He got up and pulled on his sweats and grabbed a hoody then walked in the bathroom. I can even look at my own wife without wanting to shoot that white fucker. I hope C Boy did what I asked. He stared at Nicki through the mirror as she stood in her big maternity tee and pink slippers. He tried avoiding looking at her stomach, but couldn't help it. His face showed it and she began to cry. He turned to her, but she backed out the bathroom.

"Baby.."

"I should just get an abortion."

"I'm sorry, it..."

"You looked at me as if I'm disgusting. This isn't my fault!"

"Stop yelling and calm down."

"NO, I need you and you can't even look at me, touch me or anything. Am I disgusting to you?"

She asked making my heart hurt. I know it's not her fault, but I was jealous, hurt, confused and feeling like less of a man because another man was able to do what I've been trying to do for years in a matter of seconds. He looked away walking out the door. He heard her faint sniffles then her getting back in bed.

******

"Yo Boss, what you doing here?"

"Where is C Boy?"

"Home."

"Cool."

"Yo we heard about yo wife, sorry dude and we handled that for you, have you seen the news?"

Chance asked him. SB shook his head then sat on the table as he turned the TV on. There on the news, Mr. Haze was crying because his wife had "died" in her sleep. SB smirked as Chance dapped him up.

"Eye for Eye."

"Is yo wife good?"

"Yeah, she cool."

"Good, tell her I said what's up."

"Gotchu, thanks."

"Anytime."

SB walked out the dope house and around three blocks back to his car. He drove around for awhile buying the kids some things while he was in NY for the day.

He walked into the mall and started in bath & body works for Macy and Linda, who loved smell good. He just picked everything with a fruit on it. A woman walked to him with a sly grin on her face and reached out for a bottle of lotion that he was reaching for. She giggled nastily as he pulled his hand back.

"I've never seen a man in here before."

"I see why."

He stated smelling all the girly fragrances and mist. She blushed. He walked around her and added more things to his shopping bag the lady had given him. The lady followed him.

"Can I help you?"

"I'm Ayanna."

"Okay?"

"You are?"

"Married and not looking."

He walked annoyed with her presence. Hoes irk me, I know she sees my wedding band. He went to the desk and checked out.

"Hey! If you're ever looking...."

"I won't ever be looking. No thanks."

He said pushing her card back to her. She sucked her teeth and stormed off. Let me get out of this damn mall. He quickly made his way out and went to a shoe store for the boys.

He picked out Adidas, Forces and Kanye's new shoe. They had one of Kanye's shoe because they weren't suppose to be selling them anyways. It was his size too. He thought about QJ, but he's grown.

He went into a girl's clothing store and bought all the girls clothes and accessories, especially for Maddy. I know she's mad at me, but I just want the best for my baby. Sadness washed over him as he went into the women's part.

"Is there anything you need?"

"Naw, just ring all that stuff up and I'm gone."

******

He made it home Monday afternoon. He walked in the door with all the stuff in a big black bag over his shoulder. He quickly and quietly went into Linda's room and put her bags on her bed then across the hall to Licour's room and did the same for every room until he came to their bedroom.

Nicki and Linda were sleeping with Linda's head on her stomach. He put the bag down and grabbed Linda and carried her to her room. He quickly ran up the stairs back to their room to find Nicki gone.

"Nic, baby, where you at?"

"I'm on the toilet."

"One or Two?"

"One."

"I'm coming in."

"Oh okay."

He walked into see her hair falling over her face and skin glowing. She slipped out her panties as she wiped between her legs. He didn't know why, but it turned him on seeing her do that. She shook her hair out of her face and looked at him after hearing him groan.

"What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing."

He answered quickly grabbing hold of himself. She smirked then shook her head as she stood up to turn on the water to take her shower.

"Are you just going to watch me?"

"Is that a crime?"

"Bye, Safaree."

"Naw, I got you something, so hurry up."

"I can barely see my puss and you're rushing me?"

"I'll wash it for you."

"Hmm."

"I'll be gentle."

******

Nicki screamed in the middle of Licour's spelling bee. Blood trickled down her leg then she fainted. SB grabbed her up and made his way out of the building. Linda, Macy and Layshun stayed to film and watch the rest of the Bee. Maddy and QJ ran behind them.

SB stood in the hospital room that they had assigned for her. They took her back for emergency labor. Maddy was crying and shaking as QJ comforted her. The doctor had told them that she may not make it and that set her water works off. Mama Maraj and Samuels ran into the room with Licour and the other kids. Everyone stood silent and moved in slow motion it seemed like.

"What happen?"

"This morning she said she was in pain, but wanted to go support Cour then three hours in she started talking about the pain increasing on her cervix. About an hour ago she started bleeding and we are waiting for her to come out okay."

"What about the baby?"

"Step outside."

All three stepped out as Jelani came in, but turned back around. SB sighed and let them know that there was two babies in Nicki and that one had died inside of her due to it not getting fed and been crushed by the other baby who was a month older than it. They all stood silent taking it in as Linda came out the room.

"Daddy, a nurse said you need to go to E56 pass those doors over there."

"Alright."

He walked down the hall to the doors and pushed the visitors button. He looked around then spotted the numbers going to the left and walked down counting from E60. He stood in front of the door feeling nervous and praying that she was okay.

"Mr. Samuels, go in, she's just sleeping and the baby is alright."

"Thanks."

He sighed of relief and hurried into the room to see her laying beautifully asleep. Her stomach was still round, but not as big. She breathe in and out slow as he touched her small face. He smiled as her eyes trapped his eyes in a staring contest.

"Hey Beautiful, you feeling alright?"

"Yeah, I feel lighter. Is the baby here?!"

She asked sitting up and rubbed over her stomach. She sighed loudly feeling it there. He sat on the edge of the bed and explained to her what had happen after she passed out. She stared blinking and shocked.

"I killed the baby?"

"No baby you didn't. Maybe it was it's time."

"I killed..."

"Mrs. Samuels don't think that. The baby would have died anyways. We found out the baby was brain dead already because of your little frame and its late arrival seeing as it was a month behind the one that survived."

"Oh, my poor baby."

The doctor rubbed her leg and gave her small smile. She gave him a tight lip smile and sighed laying back against the bed. SB grabbed her hand and kissed it as Maddy came into the room with tears in her eyes. A smile pushed through as she saw Nicki laying there smiling at her.

"Come here, cry baby."

Macy raced in giggling hearing her mother's voice. Then everyone else piled into the room with their weary smiles and teared faces.

"Aw you cry babies."

"We need you."

QJ spoke. Nicki began to cry seeing his face wet from tears. I never seen that nigga cry in my life. God he has a heart. Everyone hugged her as SB tried to sneak out.

"Where are you going?"

"To get something to eat."

"Sneaking out?"

"I didn't want to disturb the love."

"Okay..."

She looked down at her fingers. He walked out heading towards the cafe when Linda came behind him and tugged on his jacket.

"You act like you don't love Mommy anymore."

"I do love her... I'm just..."

"You didn't cry not once and you didn't even show her any affection. That's love? Then I never want to get married."

She said walking back to the room. Her words stabbed at his heart as he stood in the doorway thinking about which way he was going. Back to the room or to feed everyone's tummy. He choice to continue his journey to the cafe to think.